What does our trust look like when we can't explain our trouble or sickness? How do we look beyond it all? Some of us try to show faith by saying we are believing God for something in our lives like a job, health, or whatever other need they may have. Some say trusting in him means accepting that his ways are not our ways. I've come to realize that what it means to trust God can be almost as hard as the situation itself. I've also come to realize that the Word of God gives us wisdom for those struggles.
I am learning not to be afraid to be honest with God. David expressed his despair and helplessness for things beyond his control. Job accused God of being unfair. When it seemed God was ignoring them, they expressed it. But they learned to trust God in the dark times of their doubts.
It helps me when I break this journey down into small steps. As a friend once told me, inch by inch life's a cinch, yard by yard life is hard. God promised I will never leave you or forsake you.
In desperate times we think we know what we need from God. But God knows what is best for us even in difficult circumstances.
It gets real easy to doubt yourself. Job got to where he doubted himself more than he doubted God. After being reminded of the eternal power of God , he fell to his knees. From a broken heart, Job said,"I know that you can do everything, and that no purpose of yours can be withheld from you . I have uttered what I did not understand, things to wonderful for me, which I did not know. I have heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you".
Even though I have doubts at times, when I see God and who he is, trusting him is a little easier.