Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Imagine

Imagine being a healthy person like many of you reading this
Imagine beginning to feel that something isn't right but you have no idea what could be wrong
Imagine after nearly a year undergoing tests to figure out what is happening to your body and they tell you have ALS
Imagine the heartbreak you feel on the trip home after that, knowing you've basically been given a death sentence
Imagine eight months later being confined to a wheelchair
Imagine losing motor skills in your hands and fingers
Imagine your speech beginning to slur
Imagine choking on food and drinks losing the ability to eat
Imagine losing your ability to speak altogether
Imagine relying on others to provide your personal hygiene, toileting, etc
Imagine lying in bed unable to move or change positions
Imagine trying to engage in conversation and not being able to speak what's on your mind
Imagine typing with fingers that twitch and constantly having to fix mistakes because of it
Imagine the only muscles that work are my arms, which are getting weaker and you worry what will happen if they fail
Imagine having a sound mind trapped in a body that won't respond to my brains commands

​I've had ALS now for six years and though my mind is still the same, I look in the mirror and see a man wasting away, that was once a strong, confident, and self sufficient man. Nothing like my former self. :(  But I will still put my trust God and believe he has a plan and purpose in all this. The only consolation I have in all this, is the fact that what lies ahead for me will be way better than anything this world has to offer.

The words of C. S. Lewis  "Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind"

Imagine taking two hours to write this post